Today wuz LEP lecture, me, Jamie and the whole of my grp 4 die die also do wan sit in front, then 彭老师 asked how come grp 4 disappeared. haha. And we got the form to 写作营! Yay!! Jamie was so super happy dat she would be able to see her Hwa Chong frenz she almost screamed. Haha... then everyone just filled in the form IMMEDIATELY apart from the parents' signature part. An Ru keep telling Jamie "要删除,删除华中初级学院..." while pointing to the part where you have to delete accordingly. I just found it funny lor. Then 彭老师 told us to design the T-shirt for the camp plus a file, and 稿纸. Supposedly we are to have some cute rabbit picture on the 稿纸, cuz last year they had tigers, but wont it look funny? Haha... and 彭老师 keep saying no wonder we like 兔崽子... but actually qt lame la.

Got this guy, from China, in grp 4 also. He is super funny, cuz everytime teacher asks him a qn he will go very very loudly "HUH....?" like he just got awaken from sleep lidat. And he keep forgetting dat we cant speak English at all during LEP and in LEP room, and somehow, no matter how he try his best, his sentence will have a word or two in english. its super funny lor. That time teacher asked him to explain his viewpoint on an article, he said "我是十分同意您的说法,but 我仍然觉得..." and he just smack his forehead,exclaiming:"Forget!" Then he quickly covered his mouth. By that time the whole class laughing and laughing like siao lor...

Had a super long talk with Mr Tan and Ms Wong today after maths lect. Mr Tan say he will talk to my CT (Hello, she din even listen to my reasons lor!) and he will try to fight for me with the HOD. Ms Wong told me she try to bring forward the small test so i can quickly prove how bad i am. haha. seriously, its so weird. They might as well just let my drop. Wad for prove how bad i am? Everyone's like telling me to go write name then can hand up le. But i'm pretty grateful to them both, cuz they really took time to talk to me and discuss and advice me. And they cared alot, it was obvious. They could emphatize and they are really doing all they can to 争取 the best for me. I'm touched. very touched.

Tomorrow got LEO Club, but my wisdom tooth is hurting me like crazy, had to live on panadol basically. Geez. But the impending operationS are enough to keep me away. Plus Gladys and Fiona said they had it too, but they just bore with it till it is fully grown. And then its alright. But Halima told me during the course will be very pain then fever and all dat. Like when ZhiJie grew his first few teeth... haha. Ouch. And i cant afford to miss any single lessons lor. Seriously, i am already finding the pace and timetable a bit suffocating. My life, no actually now i got no life. I just morning wake up, go sch, come back, eat dinner, bathe, do homework(if got any ounce of energy left), sleep, next morning the routine is the same. And i like forever got alot to do. And for a ex-slacker like me, it is really hard to adjust. And the stress dat pple around you are working hard really really hard (Look at Jamie, i sat beside her during LEP lect today, she had ALL her notes on 沈从文 highlighted and when teacher flashed the transparency notes, she told me, "i read through all the notes le, these are not inside." I was just like gobsmack. sheesh. i din even noe i got this set of notes actually, since teacher din tell us she wuz gonna do this today la.). Today i had frenz who were telling me they feel really inferior here. I somehow feel dat way too lor. Kinda sad. Like i will forever be lower than everyone else.

I read some stuff from the forum abt this first intaker wanting to write a petition so that he can have his old CG back and throw all the second intakers into another class. I was just like "Hello? That doesn count as making the second intakers feel welcome, does it?" Then the other time Mrs Lim spoke to us(second intakers) and she asked "Do you all feel left out?" i started thinking abt it, and somehow my conclusion was, ya, to some extent, a pretty large extent, yes. I mean, 32/04 is really really nice. Great pple, fun and interesting. But u just feel a gap btw u and the first intakers. And some seriously don care to blend in wif u. Of cuz it would be as Zhi Yuan says 一竹竿打翻一船人 if i don point out the other part of the picture. There are some who put in lots of effort to make frenz with us and make us feel really, a part of TJ a part of 32/04. I'm not saying they should dump the old 32/04 behind, but shouldn they look forward a little bit more? As if i don miss my 04A1 back at NY. But that is first three months, now is next one and more-than half years. Which is longer, which grp of pple do you have to see more of? Doesn it make sense to put in effort in communicating and connecting wif pple u would have to live wif the next two years? At least it does to me, however much i miss 04A1. They are still good frenz i will always treasure. but i just wont 把他们一直挂在嘴边...

Hey, btw, to pple who actually care and are making efforts to talk to us and stuff, thanks. alot. (Pple like Kai Leng(It meant alot when you all always include me in things!), Fiona...etc etc)
Joyce at 8:40 PM

Thursday, April 01, 2004

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